It's almost the end of September and my cleanse from social media has
been going well. I feel jealousy and unnecessary distraction leaving my
life and I feel more focused. This is how life should be.
Did
you expect a a dramatic intro, with me reflecting on these past few
weeks? Well, hate to break it to you, but this isn't that kind of blog
post. I'm going to be direct and post how things are going at this
moment. Instead of doing a solid recap.
Well, in terms
of the core 3 aspects of my life, I'd say 2/3 are ok and the 3rd one is
on life support. Job related work things and personal growth are going
well. Love life is nowhere to be found. It left the building, burned it
down, and decided to jump in a corvette, speeding off into the sunset.
One
day, I'd like to fully accept that people in my past are just that.
They are the past. If they were meant to affect my future or help it,
they would have popped up by now. Or is it my own downfall that I don't
ever take the initiative? Gees, you have to do everything in life
yourself, right?
At the time of typing, a couple of
goals have intertwined with my path of personal growth. I'm learning
Unity(again), brushing up on my graphic design work, and working out.
Working out began as a journey to improve my personal appearance (to get
the females to notice me) but once I accepted I should just do it for
myself, it became more manageable. Because I've been running myself
ragged, this week I'm sticking to workout stuff at home. Let's see how
that goes.
You may comment, " Well, if you're goofing
off all the time, you'll never better your career or improve your love
life!" You're not completely wrong about that. Yes, I should constantly
be doing things to improve these aspects of my life, but working this
long in the workforce has made me realize an important thing. As with
anything, balance is key.
Yes, you can work every
single day of your life. Always pushing yourself to do better, but
what's the point if your colleagues all move on. Or the company you're
working for has a ceiling? I'm talking no promotion available, you're
expendable, and there is a cap on the paygrade. Well, that's the boat I
am stuck on. I know it won't last forever, but in the mean time it pays
the bills and helps me not be completely lazy.
I want
to design things and draw every single day of the week, but I know I
can't. This is why my job will fuel my funding for these things. Plus,
if I want to extend into the more creative areas, such as podcasting,
writing, video editing, etc., I will need funding for all of these
things.
The key is to stay busy. Always keep focused
ahead. Even if I'm goofing off for a week and doing nothing, it's still
something. There's purpose behind it. I am resting for an entire week to
let my body recharge. In my downtime, I'll be creating things(design or
artwork wise) and honing my own abilities to meditate and be humble.
Humbleness
is a big theme in my exodus. It has helped me focus on what I need to
worry about and help me embrace my solidarity of being on my own. I
don't have to constantly be around people to seek fulfillment.
Lastly,
I'll wrap this post up with a visual image of some sort and this
thought. There will always be a day when you are fed up with staying
quiet about who you are, what you feel, what you want to do. And when
you decide you've had enough, you can finally start living your life.
Tell people how you feel about them. Embrace your own insecurities and
champion your own strengths. Be proud you want an intelligent
conversation vs. having a short attention span to social media. And if
you have an opinion that everyone does not like, speak 1000 times
louder. Let them know that you stand by it.
Take me for
example. Realistically, I don't think fame nor fortune will ever cross
my path, but I will strive toward it. I will be successful in living a
fulfilled life, with or without a family of my own. I want to go to
sleep at the end of the day knowing that what I'm doing now is a
stepping stone to a bigger end game. And every step matters, even if
it's a baby step.
As Sam and Dean would do, it's time to hit the road to the next adventure. And keep pressing forward.
Later.
