So here I am again. At midnight, blabbing on about how I should have fixed my problems in the past before they came back up to bite me in the present setting of summer. But that's the thing with life, it's unpredictable. One day, you could feel like a million bucks and everything is going your way. The next day may be the worst day ever. And so begins my own "Road To Redemption"
The next couple of posts(1-3) will document the different phases I have gone through that involved me throughout school. I will further investigate what I did exactly wrong, how I dealt with my biggest failures, and what I'm doing now to move past it, fight back, and take the offensive and not fall into the same trap as I did before.
I'll touch base on the first part of this series, then I'll continue into a full post later. The first part is simple: Failure.
Failure has followed me for quite some time now, from my early days of high school, as an emerging and misunderstood artist, to the present of my career at OSU. Everything was riding on the line for me to get into that design program. The hours, money, people I talked to, resources, preparation, all of it was sloppily organized which led to my ultimate downfall. But in my own defense, I never saw it coming at all. Who would have known that despite me being jobless during school, 3 hardcore design classes would kick my ass back to yesterday. And no one warned me of the strict protocol that the teachers abided by when it came to review. I had to learn things the hard way.
So if it isn't obvious now, the Portfolio came and went. I survived judgment day, but I didn't defeat it. I didn't make the cut. My advisor(who is on the borderline of completely useless) told me that I was ranked the lowest, I should move on to something else, and that it would be an uphill battle to redeem myself if I were to try it again. Top that your situation sucks cake with that I have to wait an entire year and maybe have a 50% chance of getting back into the first design classes again. So I might not even get in to be able to try again.
Failure had struck me so suddenly, I didn't know how to react. At first, I was angered. I paid money(from the gov) into this program and I'm not in the program within the school? It doesn't make any sense!?! But from a different and calm perspective, they take the best, not the worst. They're too uber 1337 to pick just anyone...
And that's just the beginning. I have a long road ahead of me, but this summer has been worth it so far. We'll see how the trilogy develops for me. One day at a time.
